Perpetually stuck in a revolving door of anarchy. In the most simplest of forms, I am a mess. A delirium of unpredictability. Soft mayhem. Chaos. A predestined fate followed out incorrectly. A predictable direction, veered off course. A plan that never goes to plan. An abundance of unknown. The arrhythmia of a dying heart. Humanity without […]

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“You want me to hurt you? Tell you what to do? Degrade you and own you?” He said. His eyes lit up with excitement. Mine squinting with disappointment “Masochist doesn’t inherently translate to submissive.” I responded, and with an eye roll, mentally crossed him off my list of possibilities. Homo sapiens, as far as we […]

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Throughout my days, I have moments of being intoxicated. Ordinary days, ordinary moments. Moments that are fleeting and hyper-intense. They incapacitate my very core. There’s no exclusive trigger, nothing specific that is a catalyst for this intoxication. It could be a memory; a memory of a kiss, a perfectly described concept or an alarming sound. It could be […]

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The Alchemists used philosophy and science to try and transform “base metals” to “noble metals” – like lead to gold; almost like magic. This was an unsuccessful process with metals, however, this process became a valuable template for the understanding of our capacity. Inked in my skin is the symbol of an alchemical process. A […]

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It is said; The apple from the garden of Eden, was none other than the purest of reds, enticing and damming. Red. My favourite colour. We can’t see it, but it’s the colour that courses through our veins – we bleed red. What is it about this colour that affects us so? What makes it […]

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Most of us live in a world where everything is readily available.  We have food delivered to our door, clothes sent to us in the mail, connection feigned through social media and information at our fingertips. Every humanly need, instantly gratified. We’ve lost the art of savouring a moment. We don’t know how to wait, […]

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I had this strange moment of awareness. Awareness that almost everyone I know has a private and mysterious inner life. Somewhere along the corridors of the mind, lies a deep dark door – a labyrinth of curiosity – but can never be broken into. What’s hidden behind the door? Secret perversions? Unquenchable thirsts? Vulnerable desires? […]

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I’ve always had an affinity for voices. While many people draw desire from the aesthetics of others, I can’t help but feel forced to plead the case for aural beauty. How is it that we can identify someone so specifically through the sound of their voice? This concoction of tone, frequency, amplitude, waveform, pitch, volume […]

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Intimacy. It holds a different meaning to all of us, a word so estranged, that none of us can put our finger on it. We each define it so uniquely that it’s no longer a signifier for one particular emotion. It’s an amalgamation of physical and emotional needs that we all mix with different formulations. […]

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F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote that “There are all kinds of love in this world, but never the same love twice.” Simply put, human connections vary with every different relationship. You will never have an identical connection with one partner as you will have with the next. But do we actually have the same love/connection with […]

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